just leave me here to die!Wednesday, July 13, 20058:59AM - wow boy's what to do!Hi guys, whats crakin nmh!Well i met this dude david!I like him and all but i dont know!It's really confusing!And yesterday at guard nae nae and paigey told me that they saw matt.l and nate.s at the white snake concert,and i dont know how i was brought into the conversation but i was and matt told them that he likes me!Which by the why i never saw coming in a million years!nae nae gave me his lj and i went on it and it said there's a girl in my life or somethin like that!But i dont know if hes talkin about me i guess ill have to wait and see!Because i like matt way more than david!I dunno i guess im still in shock!WOW! Well guys i gotta jet!l8ter! much luv<3 megan Current mood:  !!!!!!!BOY'S!!!!!!!Friday, July 1, 200512:55PMhey yall!whats crakin!im officially over ben!i still wanna be freinds!today i have school!im about to get out!then i have a a doctors appointment!then brit b is coming over but i have to babysit!ill write more later! <3much luv<3 megan Current mood:  bouncyThursday, June 30, 200510:52AM - it will never be the same!hey yall!whats crakin!nmh!i guess im pretty much over ben because there no reason to cry about it,that wont bring him back to me!i wanna be friends but i dont think he feels the same way i do!thats fine i guess!i really didnt want everybody that reads him journal to know about my personal life but i guess there gonna know!my cousin brit and i are going to see craig morgan and josh gracin at the fremont baby food festivals!its gonna be soo fun!o ya and i got a new crush!well i gotta go l8ter t8ters! <3 much luv<3 megan Current mood: i dont know why!Wednesday, June 29, 20059:09AMwell as u all have prolly herd!ben broke up with me...on livejournal,who does that!omg whatever!i cant believe that!i guess he didnt know how much i cared about him!this always happens to me!every time something good happens it always ends!i guess im just not good enough!and ben if u read this im not trying to put u on a guilt trip!i dont care!im at school now!and im getting really pissed and emotional!so im gonna go l8ter!much luv meg Current mood:  i cant believe this!!!!!Wednesday, June 22, 200512:10PMhey, wow its been a while!i have been having a very emotional past 2 weeks!one of the coolest guys u could ever meet has died!he hung himself!i just got back from camp on monday!this year at camp was a very eye opening experience for me!i decided that i didnt like the way i was living my life and i needed to change!the speaker this year really spoke to me!i chose to give my life to christ!rush and murph lead me in the sinners prayer!i dont want any of you to decide not to be my friend anymore because i have done this!im not a whole different person,my outlook on life is just different!so please dont act different around me!it was really hard for me to write this!i gotta go l8ter! <3 megan Current mood:  i love u ben!Current music: underoath Monday, June 6, 20052:15PMHI guys, i havent updated in a while!i guess it was kinda getting on my nerves!i dunno!we have to keep in touch this summer!im havin a party ill let u all know the date later!if anybody didnt know ben and i are back together!I'M SOOOOO HAPPY!i missed him soo much!this time im not gonna screw it up!well ill try not to!im always the problem with everything!and not just with ben but with everyone!hey ben if u read this i want you to know that i love u with all my heart and i always will!o ya by the way on ur profile it still says VERY SINGLE and LOOKING!maybe u should change that!LOL!much LOVE guys! <3 meggy Current mood: i love you BEN!Current music: 3 doors down Monday, May 9, 20053:52PMhey!i like derek edsall soooooo friekin much you dont even know!i hope we start going out soon if he really likes me!well enough of the good news,on to the bad i think im losing one of my best friends!BEN and i have grown apart so much!im miss him alot!even though i liked him as more than a friend!all my friends told me to move on because i dont stand a chance anyways!but i still want to be friends even though i like derek alot!well i gotta go think things out before i do somethin stupid that i will regret! Current mood:  i dont know whats gonna happenCurrent music: clearly blind Sunday, April 24, 200510:08AMhey guys!whats up!nmh!ya this weekend was really fun friday i went to my cousin niki's house!we watched movies!then saturday when we got up we called the movie theatre to see what was playin!we went and saw the pacifier!i so f-in funny omg i cried!lol!well today is my daddys b-day!HAPPY 38TH DADDY!LOL!wow!hes getting old!lol!were having a party!all of his brothers are coming!great that means all my dumb cousins!wow soo much fun!lol!well i gotta go help my mommy finish the cake!l8ter!much luv<3 megan Current mood: im just happyCurrent music: secondhand Wednesday, April 20, 20056:25PMHEY GUYS!whats everyone up too!nmh!i dont feel good at all today!and not feeling good put me in a really bad mood!well my day was kinda dumb!i got up this mornin and i had to go to the orthodontist, i dont know what they did but it hurts sooo friekin bad!GRUFF!when i actually got to skewl it was still first hour that sucked i was not in the mood for spanish!second hour was boaring i watched 2 movies on mammals!third hour was just dumb!and well the rest of the day sucked too!the good news is our DANCE CONCERT is tomorrow!i better see everyone there or im gonna be very mad!lol!jk!and i still like ben!hopefully,..maybe this summer we will get back together!I HOPE!well yall gotta go much luv! Current mood:  why cant i feel bettter?Current music: clearly blind~god saves posers Monday, April 18, 20055:52PMHEY YALL, WHATS CRAKIN?nmh!so how is everyone!sorry its been so long i have been kinda busy latly!well the only thing on my mind right now is ben!!!!ya again!i really want to get back together with him but its hard to talk to him ya know what i mean!well i like him alot!but dont worry ill talk to him eventualy!WOW!WELL GOTTA GO L8TER! Current mood: BEN!BEN!BENCurrent music: <3MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE<3 Wednesday, April 6, 200512:27PMHEY YALL ITS BEEN FOREVER!LOL!well this past weekend was our last winterguard competition!and we got 7th out of 12!its not the best but its okay!but we had a load of fun!the whole guard and there families went to the super buffet!when the lady brought us our drinks they tasted like cat piss!we about died we were laughing soo hard!and when it was time for us the go and get our food me and nae nae went together and i got some chicken on a stick and a bunch of other stuff!but nae got freikin plain white rice a piece of garlic bread and jello!what a dork!but anyway when we got back to the table i took a bite of the chicken on a stick and it was the nastiest thing i have ever had!well we started makin fun of it and scaring krysta's little sister by telling her it was cat!she was freakin out it was hilarious!but ya it was super fun!well i gotta go hope ur spring breaks are KILLER!much luv <3 megan Current mood: aquire the fire is in two daysCurrent music: green day Tuesday, March 29, 20056:57PM - chacha buchi! (lol )hey yall whats crakin!nmh!so how is everyone!im okay!me and ben are freinds again thank god!i missed him sooo much!maybe one day we can try again!i dunno!why cant everyone just get along!GRUFF!and livejournal is one reason why people lose freinds!so dramatic!god!aquire the fire is coming up i cant wait!its gonna be so kewl!easter sunday was kewl!my cousin niki and i watched my mom and dads wedding dvd it was sooooo super funny!my dad had a perm!omg!soo weird looking!i have dance tommorow for two hours!GET MY FREAK ON!LOL!some people in that class are gay and smell like cat piss!lol!well i gotta go for now!l8ter t8ters!much luv<3 megan Current mood: whats gonna happen next!!!Current music: simple plan Wednesday, March 16, 20059:45AM - im in LOVE!!!!!hey yall whats crakin?i have a new man!JUSTON!I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH!i have another competition this weekend!its in lakeland!fun fun!juston might be goin!i hope he does!ben is being dumb!i hope me and juston's relationship last! I REALLY LIKE HIM!i think i like him more than i liked ben!i dunno!maybe not!im goin to the secondhand cd release concert next weekend!its gonna be kewl!after the concert im goin to paiges mom's house to stay the night!i love my mamma SUE!lol!my uncle kevin is commin home in two months!YES! I CANT WAIT!well i gotta go yall!l8ter t8ters!<3megan Current mood: I LOVE JUSTONThursday, March 10, 20053:39PMhey guys!im goin to indiana tomorrow!what fun!i feel like crap!ben all of a sudden is being really weird!we havent talked more then 5 minuets this whole week!I MISS HIM SOO MUCH!i cant say it enough!im soo sick of people backstabbing other people!it's dumb!i think that me and one of my best friends are growing apart and it sux we use to have so much fun together!but everything happens for a reason!i guess!well i gotta go hope yall have a good weekend!l8ter t8ters! by the way i think im gonna take up the EMO violin! much luv<3 megan Current mood: life can be soo StUpIdCurrent music: UNDEROATH a boy brushed red living in balck and white Friday, March 4, 20059:39PM - gaurd suckshey guys whats crakin!?nmh!im in second hour right now!were suppose to be workin on our projects but o well i think its dumb any ways!tonite i have practice right after school untill six!but im leaving at 5:45!after practice i think my mom and i are gonna go pick up ben to go to church with us!yes!we are gonna hang out!i hope dumb allan isnt there because he is being so dumb!GRUFF!OMG katie might be moving i dont want her to leave again!TEAR!this SUX!hopefully ben and i talk so we can decide were are relationship is gonna go from here!well i gotta go yall!l8ter t8ters! <3 megan<3 much luv Current mood: I CANT WAIT UNTILL TONITECurrent music: NONE Thursday, March 3, 20053:26PM - whoooahey yall whats crakin?nhm!i really, really, really want to get back together with ben!i miss him so much!the things he would say, the way he touched me (not in a nasty way either for any of u sicko's),just the all together way he was!i miss it soooo much!and i keep giving him signs that i want to be with him!but i dont think he understands how much he means to me!i wish i wasnt so scared to talk with him about!i mean im not scared of him but im scared if what he might say!i just know that i hate to think that when i having a bad day i cant run to him and have him hold me in his arms!see there is a sensitive side to me when im not being a bitch!someone help!well i gotta go for now l8ter t8ters!much luv <3 megan! Current mood: i hope ben get back togetherCurrent music: ashlee simpson better off Tuesday, March 1, 20053:36PM - HELP!hey yall!guess who my new man is?! hes a movie star!lol!RAY CHARLES!JK!there is no new man i was yankin ur chains!so how is everyone!gud i hope!i am havin a bad month!the guy that i love and want to be with does not feel the same!i wish i could tell him how i really feel!i love him so much!but every time i go to tell him he talks about another gurl that he likes and i think to myself whats the use of telling him if he doesnt want to be with me to!GRUFF!SO CONFUSING!ill get over it i hope!maybe he will read this and comment!he probably knows who he is!i wish i had all the answers but i dont!well i gotta go l8ter t8ters! much luv<3megan Current mood: HELP ME !Current music: ashlee simpson- better off |
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